We have now resumed our daily lives. Looking forward to Hans's children sleepovers this weekend. Home cooked meals, movie and swimming has been the agenda with the kids in the weekends and I'm known as the fun mommy. Ha..ha..ha..who would of thought of that......
Once the weekend come to an end, the ever faithful abang Razali will fetch and send them to Bibi Nyonya house. They have been a permanent residence at their grandmother's since their mom spends most of her time jet-setting all over Europe with her European husband.
"Abang, ni bawak balik sikit kueh seri muka saya buat tadi. Untuk orang rumah. Saya sebenarnya tak beberapa pandai, setakat belajar dari internet saja.....",I chuckled and smile.
"Wah rajinnya puan buat kueh....terima kasih banyak-banyak. Puan ni ada saja untuk kami tiap-tiap minggu.", Abang Razali thanked profusely and bowed a few times. Such a humble guy.
"Alhamdulillah,....ada rezeki lebih saya kongsi dengan abang. Satu bekas ni untuk Mummy ya (Bibi Nyonya)....", I responded and accepted his deep appreciation.
"Wah, bertuah Tuan Hans dapat isteri macam puan....Insya Allah, saya sampaikan pada Bibi Nyonya. Budak-budak dah siap, puan?", he's assured me.
"Dah ada di depan tu, tadi pakai kasut.", I replied.
Sad to see them leave but looking forward to see them next week at Bibi Nyonya's Chinese New Year's grand dinner. We parted with a group hug and I told them to study hard. They got in the car and we waved good byes.
Now the house is quiet again.......
Hans was away and will be back next Tuesday. The wedding reception is going to be in two weeks time and all preparation are underway. Final fitting is next Thursday and Alia of Alia B. Bridal.Atelier made a courtesy call reminding me of our appointment. I loved her ideas. I think her design fits my personality and character.
Credit to Alia B. Bridal.Atelier and Google Image.
Access for wheeled bound guest have been agreed upon. Next Thursday will be chaotic to the level I cannot imagine.
I made myself a glass of Ribena after making sure the doors and windows are securely locked. Left the doorway light on. Sat down in bed and switched on to my Facebook.
Buzz.....
I picked up my cellphone.
👻 Iddin
Are you awake?
9:07 PM
Me: aha..😏 9:07 PM
👻 Iddin
Good. we need to talk. 9:07 PM
Me: I'm tired. Nak tidur dah....9:10 PM
👻 Iddin
This is important.....about Hans😔 9:10 PM
👻 Iddin
You're still there? 9:12 PM
👻 Iddin
I call you now...!😠 9:14 PM
Buzz....Buzz.....Buzz.....Buzz....I picked up my cellphone.
Me: Hello?
Iddin: Tak tidur lagi la ni....
Me: What is it Iddin. Dah malam ni....I wanna go to sleep besok I kerja.
Iddin: I pun kerja jugak la....It's not even 10.....
Me: So,...what is it so important that you must call me tonight? Make it short. Where are you by the way?
Iddin: At home, Cyberjaya.
Me: Hmm...eh, I thought you are with Hans. Bukan ke both of you doing the proposal in Dubai? Next Tuesday baru balikkan?
Iddin: Hans asked me to go back dulu. Dia kata ada personal matter he wants to deal first before balik KL. Anyway, I bukan nak bawak mulut but sebelum I tell you the reason I called I nak tanya dulu....
Me: Personal matter kat Dubai? You nak tanya apa? Sound serious saja.....
Iddin: Sebelum you jumpa Hans, dia ada girlfriend tak?
Me: Iddin! Apasal pulak you nak tanya....I don't like where this is going....Iddin, boleh mind your own business tak....
Iddin: Amboi garangnya....NO......listen! Dia ada girlfriend tak sebelum you jumpa Hans? Answer that first!
Me: I don't know okay. All I know he was married with two children and then divorced. He could, perhaps lepas dia bercerai dengan isteri dia....I seriously don't know.....why are you asking me, you should ask Hans sendiri.....
Iddin: I think Hans met his ex-girlfriend in Dubai.
Then he was silent. I was silent, too.........
Part 2.
Me: I don't know what to say. I mean there is nothing wrong kalau dia bumped into his old girlfriends....I bumped into you.....so.....what's the difference?
Iddin: Well if you are fine with that.....just to share with you that I know this ex-girlfriend of his. Masa I buat my degree at Curtin, this lady, Hani, was in the final stage of Master's program. Community Malaysian ramai di Perth and I got to know by word of mouth that she is a player....she hasn't changed. The same old her....
Me: So you are trying to warn me of Hans discrete activities outside of my knowledge? You think that he's going to dump me because he met his ex-girlfriend? I think he's mature enough to deal these type of situation. Dia tahu mana betul dan mana yang salah....you are just over reacting....
Iddin: Okay....don't say I didn't warn you.
Me: You're supposed to be a good friend bukannya memecah belahkan my marriage....
And I hung up.................
Buzz....
👻 Iddin
I am on your side. I am always here if you wanna talk❤ 9:50 PM
And, I switched of my handphone. I laid thinking in bed...trying to reassure myself that nothing fishy is going on. I went through a few of my CD collection and I found Jennifer Holiday. The cover was a bit dusty but I put it on anyway....
Credit to WendyWilliams and You Tube
And
I am telling you
I'm
not going
You're
the best man I'll ever know
No,
no, there's no way
No,
no, no, no way I'm living without you
I'm
not living without you
I
don't wanna be free
I'm
staying
I'm
staying
And
you, and you, and you
You're
gonna love me, oh ooh mm mm
You're
gonna love me
We're part of the same place
We're part of the same town
We both share the same blood
We both have the same mind
In time, in time
so much so much to share no..no..no..
I'm not waking up tomorrow morning
and finding that there's nobody there
Yell, scream and shout like you can say what you want
I'm not walking out
Stop all the rivers, push, strike and kill
I'm not gonna leave you
There's no way I will
And I am telling you
I'm not going
You're the best man I'll ever know
There's no way I could ever, ever go
No, no, no, no way
No, no, no, no way I'm living without you
Oh, I'm not living without you,
Not living without you
I don't wanna be free
I'm staying, I'm staying
And you, and you, and you
You're gonna love me
You're
gonna love me now
ooh ooh ooh love me
Love
me, love me, love me, love me
You're
gonna love me
I sent a text to Hans this morning informing that the kids were having a great time. But I haven't received any reply from him yet. Normally he will text me once or twice on daily basis. Busy agaknya. But it's Sunday. What could he be doing sampai dia tak text I langsung? Cerita Iddin tadi telah menggugat keyakian aku terhadap kejujuran Hans. Terbitnya perasaan curiga............I don't know why but I couldn't stop my tears. The lyrics just killed me....I cried to sleep that night.
Hans,.....I missed you.....
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