Mama was already waiting by the door when we arrived. I kissed Mama. She kissed me back. Mama is a strong and an independent woman. In her life there's only daddy, her first and last love. I looked at her as she has aged so much in recent years after the death of my father.
"Don't worry Mama I am fine...." and I hugged her. "I just like to go and lie down in my bed for a while if it's alright with you."
"Sure. Let me help you, sayang.", Mama offered her assistance. I smiled and nodded. "Thanks Mama." I went over to Hans and gave him a hug. Hans kissed me and said,"Rest okay. I must go back to the office and I will be back before 6 today....". He hugged me tightly.
"Okay, go....just don't be late for dinner." and he let me go. I watched him leave.....
Mama held my arms and we walked up the stairs. She treated me as though I was a little girl. Full of motherly love I've never experienced before. Her comforting words made me smile and blew my pain away.
As soon as I lay down in bed my head felt heavy. I closed my eyes. I don't know why but I was at peace........
Then I opened my eyes......
"I said to myself she will wake up and see me watching her sleep...", familiar voice of Hans greeted me. "You were smiling in your sleep the whole time.", and he kiss the tip of my nose. I hear soft music playing in the background,......hmmmmm.....Marcell.
I placed my palm on his face. He kissed my palm and place it on his bare chest. "There is a phrase I read on my Facebook wall sometime back and it goes something like this.....people will forget what you said and people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel. Hans Azman, I'm having one of those moment now...". Hans grabbed my arms and softly planted a kiss on my lips.
"Hans, I ......", he placed his palm on my mouth and whispered, "Ssshhhh.......I love you more." He lift his palm and kissed me again on my lips. I just let him locked me in his arms.
Credit to Music EverywhereNet and You Tube
Kemarin
Kulihat Awan Membentuk Wajahmu
Desau Angin Meniupkan Namamu
Tubuhku Terpaku
Semalam
Bulan Sabit Melengkungkan Senyummu
Tabur Bintang Serupa Kilau Auramu
Akupun Sadari
Kusegra Berlari
Cepat Pulang
Cepat Kembali dan Jangan Pergi Lagi
Firasatku Ingin Kau Tuk Cepat Pulang
Cepat Kembali Jangan Pergi Lagi...
Akhirnya
Bagai Sungai Yang Mendamba Samudra
Kutahu Pasti Kemana Kan Ku Bermuara
Smoga Ada Waktu
Kupercaya Alam Pun Berbahasa
Ada Makna Dibalik Semua Pertanda
Firasat Ini
Rasa Rindukah Ataukah Kedamaian
Aku Tak Perduli
Kuterus Berlari
Cepat Pulang
Cepat Kembali Jangan Pergi Lagi
Firasatku Ingin Kau Tuk Cepat Pulang
Cepat Kembali Jangan Pergi Lagi
Dan Lihatlah Sayang
Hujan Turun Membasahi
Seolah Turun Air Mata
Cepat Pulang
Cepat Kembali Jangan Pergi Lagi
Firasatku Ingin Kau Tuk Cepat Pulang
Cepat Kembali Jangan Pergi Lagi
Firasatku Ingin Kau Tuk Cepat Pulang
Pulang...
Aku Pun Sadari
Engkaulah Firasat Hati.
Part 2.
I lost track of time. I don't know what time of the day it was or how long has it been I'm couped up in this room.
"Atika, ni Mama sayang....can I come in...?" It was Mama stopped by for her series of visits I guess she was just worried about me. "Mama ada bawak hot Milo and biscuit for tea....", as she walked in with a tray.
I smiled and said,"Thanks Mama, Atika plan nak turun and cari makanan. Lapar rasanya."
"Really? Alhamdulillah....dah lama sangat Atika duduk berkurung dalam bilik.". That made Mama very happy. "Drink up the Milo before it gets cold."Aku menurut saja kata Mama.
"How long has it been....me in this room?", aku bertanya Mama sambil menguyah biskut Jacobs.
"Ever since you came back from the hospital....4 days ago...", Mama replied. Aku bangun dan terus ke pintu balkoni memerhatikan keadaan sekitar yang nyaman dan berangin. I took a deep breath and turn around.
"Come Mama let's go down. I'm ready....", I laughed and I can see the sense of relief expression on Mama's face. I kissed her, "Don't worry Mama, I am strong and have been strong. Once in a blue moon I need time off to grieve my way.", as I explained to Mama. She smiled and we walked out of the room hand in hand.
We sat in the kitchen and talked. Mama poured me more Milo and I dipped the biscuit into the mug. Enjoying every bite of it.
"Hello, assalamualaikum......Mama....". Hans greeted. I turn and looked at Hans. "Tika? You're up and around already?". Hans came closer and gave me a kiss and kemudian mencium tangan Mama. He looked at me in amazement perhaps he did not expect me to leave the bedroom.
" Why? You did not expect me to to leave the bedroom so soon ya....", aku berseloroh dengan Hans. Dia tarik muka..."Hans, I was only joking. Don't take it so hard la.....", as I tugged his shirt to get his attention. "Look I'm fine okay. I am sorry...", aku masih menantikan reaksi dari Hans but he was silent. He turned and walked out of the kitchen. Wow, was he really upset of what I said earlier. I signaled Mama that I'm going after Hans.....Mama nodded, "Go...", she said.
As I followed him upstairs, then stepped into our bedroom, Hans placed his briefcase on the computer table and took of his shirt. I sat at the edge of the bed feeling guilty.
"Hans, you're mad at me......I minta maaf.", yet there is still no respond from him. He left me in the room alone and head for his shower. I waited for Hans and it has been more than 10 minutes but he is still in the shower. I must have hurt his feelings. I did not expect a small tease can affected him this serious. My instinct tells me to let him cool down and leave him alone for a while. Aku akan cuba memujuk dia later. As I walked out, I past by the empty room.....I slowly walk towards the room and open the door....I put my head in first and peak inside, scanning the room from left to right. "This would be our baby's room.....", I whispered.
Just I was about to step back I hit something......
"So find anything interesting?.....", and it gave me a shock that I screamed out loud. "Hey, hey, hey.....babe it's okay. It's just me.....", Hans hands were on my shoulders. He pulled me closer.
" Ya Allah, what happened Hans, Atika?", Mama came running up the stairs and looked confused. I was already in tears and shaking in Hans arms...
"My plan to seek revenge backfire. She'll be okay, Mama.", Hans replied.
"Kau orang berdua ni, ada-ada saja. Buat Mama terperanjat." Mama left us alone. I tried to squeeze out from Hans arms but he held on tight.
"Shhhh......, stop it! I tak sangka you terkejut macam begitu sekali. So sorry, babe.". He turned me around to face him. He wiped the tears of my face and lift my face with his hands. " Dah jangan menangis lagi. Look I'm all dressed up. I want you go and change into something nice. We'll go out for dinner with Mama, okay?" Hans memujuk aku.
Aku memandang Hans. "I hate you!"
"I love you too", Hans replied and he kissed me passionately. I gave a struggle but then gave in. I just want to tease him. Feeling naughty.....I said,"Oh main kasar ya....", and both just stood by the door and hug each other tight.
"Go and get dressed. Abang Razali is waiting for us.", Hans said. I let go of him and went back to the bedroom.
I wasn't sure where we are going so I decided to wear something simple but presentable.
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