Chapter 34 - Fly away

Part 1.

The next morning I got up just before sun rise and left Hans still a sleep. I sneaked out to the pool area and practice a few yoga moves. I put on Spotify to Grover Washington’s saxophone tune to calm me down. I closed my eyes and concentrate to the sound of wind and the waves coming from the open bay. Breathing is all under control and posture is excellent.

Credit to rarelostmusic2 and You Tube

Then, I felt like something is blocking my light. “Excuse me you are blocking my sun….”, I said and had my palm across my forehead.

The figure moved a side and sat on the pool lounge chair. “So, you are pregnant? You made a fool out of me, again.” It was Iddin sounded pissed off at me.

“So what I if am pregnant. Can’t a pregnant woman dance to the disco? Get over it Iddin.” I said feeling rather demeaning as though he is discrediting a woman's ability.

“What are you trying to prove?” Iddin was persistent.

“I have nothing to prove. Look, I was there to dance and have fun. Until you came and spoil the party.” I am pretty sure he felt insulted. Well at least that's how I want him to feel....

"Well you seemed to enjoy yourself when I touched you...?" Iddin questioned me.

"Iddin, it was a dirty dancing routine, how can we dance if we don't touch each other. Yes, we had a good laugh about it but that was it...You asked me for a dance and I obliged.", I replied.

He stared at me without blinking his eyes for a very long time…….I was embarrassed and then I continued, “If I tell you why I dumped you, would you leave me alone?”, my voice was trembling and I was almost in tears. 

I stood up and suddenly my tears rolled down my face. “So, can you promise me that you will never bother me again?  Iddin, you are a married man. You have a beautiful family that is something you should be proud off,….. not this,….you pursuing me, someone else’s wife drama.”, I looked at him and wipe the tears away. I bent to continue with my stretching.

“So much have said…..I like it when your face flush red, it kind of turn me on. Ergh!,”, Iddin laughed.

“Iddin, get lost! Get out of my sight!,”, I chased him away and he took a few step back and continued laughing. I have one arm resting on my hips and the other pointing him to leave the premise.

"Eeee....you ni memanglah, tak makan saman!". I stood there and he walked away…..then he turned and winked at me.

Urgh!! Peace at last.....

It was towards the end of my yoga routine and the sun has started to rise. I put on my sunglasses and sat looking at the progression while taking a few snapshots of this sacred moment. Alhamdulillah I am alive this morning.

Then I felt a pair of strong hands stroking and massaging my shoulders. I instantly turn and looked up. It was Hans……"It's okay it's just me......". He bent down to give me a kiss. Then he sat down next to me and placed his hands on my baby bump.  His touch made me crumble and I rest my head against his body……

“You’re okay?…...”, Hans was so practical. We cuddled and watch the sun rise this morning. I replied, "Yup, I am good."

Then, from a distance I saw Iddin standing from the restaurant above the pool, staring directly at me......


Part 2.

Back in our hotel room I was contemplating to tell Hans about my history with Fazidin. I do not want him to know my story from a third party, especially not from Iddin. Kalau dia nak marah I, marahlah. But, how should I begin???

I saw Hans sitting in the living area flipping through a few documents he received yesterday through courier service. I walked and gently kissed him on the head and rubbed his shoulders. Then I said, "Hans I have something to discuss. Can you spare me 10 minutes of your time?, I asked for his attention.

“Sure….hmmm macam serious saja…..I’m listening.”, replied Hans as he put down the documents on the coffee table.

“It’s about Fazidin…..I find it difficult to….work…with him.", I said.

"Oh, what a surprised?....I thought you guys connected well.". Hans looked at me with interest. "What happened?".

"Ok this is the thing, truth is, I kenal Fazidin and it happened 15 years ago. I rasa uncomfortable whenever he is around. I just don't know how to tell you earlier...", I explained.

"You knew each other? I noticed jugak how he looks at you…..made me uneasy.", Hans confessed.

"So….you knew something was wrong and you didn't asked me?", I questioned him.

"Well, not in the beginning….", Hans answered.

"Then, when did you noticed?", I asked him again.

"Actually it was this morning. It was obvious and you looked awkward talking to him…..I saw the whole thing, how he came on to you…..how you stood so provocative in front of him in your tight yoga attire….he was practically drooling, babe....", Hans explained that he saw the whole incident this morning. "So what happened between the two of you…..?".

"Hans,….well…..we decided…..actually I decided to go separate ways. I was in the States and thought that long distance relationship could not work out. I was in the States and he was in Malaysia....I was afraid that both of us will not be honest with each other. Rather than frust menonggeng later, I ended the relationship by saying I was already seeing other people and moved on with my life. I lied to him to get out of a situation. I explained in a letter but I never heard again from him." I told Hans the whole story.

"So basically you dumped him….", Hans made his conclusion.

"Hans….! I had my reasons. Any how, I want you to know about this before you hear it from a third party. He said I made him looked like a fool last night because he didn't know I was pregnant. How did he know? You told him?", I argued that I had a valid reason.

Hans held my hands and kissed them. “Yes, I told him when you were in the ladies. I can see the shock on is face when he knew you are pregnant....hehehe..... Seriously, I didn't know both of had a history together. Itu cerita lama but I can see quite well. I am not blind.  He still has the hot’s for you.". Hans said and I pinched him on the arm.

"You ni....I'm serious......then I went on and asked him would he leave me alone if I explained everything? He just smile. Tell me Hans, you are a man, what does his reaction means? I feel vulnerable when I’m in the same room with him. I mean I tak tahu how he's gonna react.....", I asked for his opinion.

"What you are experiencing is a feeling of guilt. You should let him know the whole truth and let’s  pray he’ll leave you alone after that….What he’s feeling? He needs a closure….", and I agree. His advise does make sense....

"You are so cute when you are agitated. But you sure can dance with him last night." Hans memerli aku.

"Owhh....It was just a dance…It wasn't my intention to encourage him. He asked me for a dance and I did. That was it.", I said but felt a little bit guilty the way I acted last night.

"I know…you’re my wife so…..as your husband, I too have feelings. Jealous? Yes. But I trust you and I know you can be rational. You can decide what is right and what is wrong.", and he kissed me on my lips. I hugged him. I had no words to describe what he just said.

“Okay, don’t worry. Talk to him. He won't eat you but I know he will bite you". I put on my angry face and hit him with a cushion a couple of times. Hans just laughed out loud.


Part 3.

That afternoon we planned to drive to Pompeii, another ancient city in Italy. It is only 37 km but travel time will take approximately 1 hour due to the winding roads.  

“Do you have to…..do you have to ask him out?”, I was whining. I followed him around the room.

“Yes babe! He is our guest…..babe come on…..you know we have too…..”, Hans replied and putting on his pants.  He smiled as though he was having such a fun time annoying me.

I walked straight to the balcony and sat there with my legs rested on the balcony rails in my bathrobe. “Then, I am not going…..”, I protest.

“Okay, if that is what you decide. You were the one who wanted to go for this tour and now you chicken out because your ex-boyfriend is coming along. Pompeii Nite Tour…….well, babe I am going with or without you…”, Hans said and giggled.

“You are being mean, Hans…I hate you.”, I answered. I stood up and walked back into the room to escape from the cool wind blowing on my face. I walked past him and he instantly grabbed me from behind…….

“No you don’t! Come….on…..Babe. Do this for me….just for this time only. Later we can have our fun time.”, Hans memujuk.

He ran his fingers on my arms. “Hmmmm…..Ok I will go with you. But you are still mean….”. I said as I lean hard on his chest.

“Sure, okay....I am being mean…….”, and he folded my arms and we held on to each other a long time.

So I got dress into my torn jeans across the knee, a bustier and a sports jacket over me. We want to catch the last tour at 6 p.m.

Part 3.

I didn't mind the guys sat in front while I had the backseat all for myself. It was really exciting and I enjoyed the wind brushing against my skin. Once in a while Hans will hold my hand and kissing it. Emmm…..he looks so gorgeous.  I would be stuck with Ghazz if not for this guy. Those lines on each smile really compliment his looks. I could take this guy right here, right now...Oooohhhh I wanna kiss this guy so bad…….

I glimpse in the rear view mirror once in a while just to check-out myself. Every time I do that Iddin was already staring at me. At times I feel like sticking out my tongue at him but no………it would be inappropriate. I ignored for most times. Once or twice I touched Hans shoulder. I lean forward close to Hans and kissed him on the cheek. It was windy and I pulled back my hair and at that moment I accidentally brushed my hand against Iddin's. He was also getting my hair off his face.  “Ooppss sorry….” I said softly trying to be polite. Iddin just smiled.

Pompeii is a vast archaeological site located in southern Italy’s Campania region. It was once a sophisticated Roman city, Pompeii was buried in meters of ash and pumice after the catastrophic eruption of Mount Vesuvius in 79 A.D.  Pompeii remained mostly untouched until 1748, when a group of explorers looking for ancient artifacts arrived in Campania and began to dig. What they found was Pompeii was almost exactly as it had been 2,000 years before, underneath all dust.  Buildings were intact. Skeletons were frozen right where they’d fallen. Daily household goods were on the streets. An archaeologists even uncovered jars of preserved fruit and loafs of bread!

During the tour I tried to distance myself from Iddin. He did the same. I walked around myself and left Hans with Iddin. I took a few pictures in the Herculaneum ruins and also a few selfies of myself. Just at the final shot, I was photo bombed.

I turned around and and saw Iddin standing right behind me. “Hi…..Hans is just right outside. I'll go and get him....” Iddin said as though nothing happened.

"Sibuk saja lah mamat nih..." aku merungut sendirian.

I gave him a frozen smile and replied a short thanks. I stood there and flipping through my digital camera searching for the last shot taken.

"Don't delete it. You might need the picture to remind me by....". I looked back up and ....... he disappeared. I look back in to my camera and finally delete Iddin's photo. Puas hati aku.

Chapter 33 - You'll Never Find Another Love Like Mine

Part 1.

Just as I was about to gave up on Iddin's attitude when Hans arrived right on time. "Hi....is everything okay? Sorry the call took longer than I anticipated. I am sure you guys are hungry. Let's order dinner." Hans suggested. I smiled at him as a sign of relieve.

"Yes, I think our guest must be very hungry.", I agreed with Hans suggestion but Iddin interrupted, "Atikah has good news for you.", and he looked directly at me.

"Oh yes, Idd....ehemm....(clearing her throat)...... Mr Fazidin has accepted our job offer. We verbally agreed and shook hands on it. I will draw up the contract soon as we return to KL and passed them to you Hans." I almost slipped his nickname in front of Hans.

"Seriously? Congratulations Fazidin. We are glad that you'll be joining us." Hans answered and shook hands with Iddin.

"Thank you, I am a man of my word. But credit has to go to Atikah. She was brilliant and I did not hesitate to accept the offer. The rest such as salary and perks can be discussed when we're back in KL. What's important now is I want to build up my career in KL with your firm learning from the best. I have very high regards of Tan Sri who sponsored my studies in Perth.", as Iddin complemented me but he knew he did not give me any opportunity to do my job well. Seems like he has set his mind way before he flew to Italy.

So....Tan Sri sponsored him at Curtin....I hope he is serious with the new job and not just feeling indebted to Tan Sri's generosity.

"Well then this cause for a celebration. Luigi can we get the menu please...". Hans requested for the menu.

"Si, signore...". Luigi replied and distributed one to each of us. We ordered our food and continued to enjoy the variety of barbecued seafood.

The conversation surrounded on the boys how they had to work their way up the ladder to achieve where they are today. I listen, laughed to their antics and check my phone regularly. Iddin has his whiskey coming one after another.

"Well, I would like to apologize but please excuse us.....I promised Atikah that we're going out for dancing......", Hans politely excused ourselves...

"Dancing? You're heading to the Music on the Rocks? You know what, I heard so much about the place. Disco dancing in a cave......Man, that's so cool!", Iddin sounded excited. His face was so bright and cheerrie.

"Yup, that’s the one. We were there a few nights ago and it is quite happening. Hey, you wanna come?", Hans invited Iddin.

Oh no Hans…..why do you have to do that now? I don’t want my ex-boyfriend to become a third wheeler.

"No…no….you guys go ahead. I am quite beat by the grueling interview and the trip here. I think I‘ll hit the sack early tonight.", Iddin decline the offer.

Good, that was a relief.

“Okay, well have a good rest. If you changed your mind just give us a call before ten thirty tonight. Our room number is 903.”, Hans stood up and shook Iddin’s hand. Iddin lean closer to give Hans a manly hug, "Good night, Bro.".

Then I held out my hand to shake his hand.  He took my hand and shook it quite longer than normal and said, “You guys go and have fun. Don’t stay up too late.” I had to tug my hand away from him and put on a force smile on my face. I walked away and slide one arm on Hans waist. Hans put his arm around my shoulder and kissed my cheek as we walked away from the dinner table.

And I didn’t look back.

Part 2.

We reached at Music on the Rocks around eleven that night and headed to the bar for a few cocktails. We drank and talk and I had to mention to him about the interview earlier this evening.

"Hans, I think he drinks way too much. From the time you left the table until you came back, he had 4 glasses of whiskey.", I told Hans of my concern.

"Well it does cause a concern but did you stop him from ordering?", Hans sipping his pineapple cocktail and has his arms around me.

"I did but he insists it was nothing to worry about.", I replied.

"Okay, let’s just keep a look out on it. He is a mature adult and can decide what is good or bad himself. If he goes overboard we will have a word with him. I am more concern about you in those heels dancing tonight. We go slow okay…..". Hans said.

I put my arms around Hans neck and kissed him passionately. When I opened my eyes, I thought I caught a glimpse of Iddin in the crowd. Or perhaps I was just imagining things. Urgh! Enough of him. Felt like he is watching me……..

Then we shift our gear to the dance floor. They were spinning Lou Rawls, You’ll never Find A Love Like Mine.

Credit to John & Jo's Music Channels and You Tube

After the third song, Hans said he wants to sit a side and go to the gents. So I sat at the bar alone waiting for Hans. As I turn to the bartender to order my drink,.....

"One Southern Comfort on the rocks and a lemon cherry cocktail for the lady...". There he was,  popped out of nowhere sitting next to me. Indeed I was surprised to see him here. I looked around for Hans but he was nowhere to be seen.

"Surprised to see me here.....aren't you?" Iddin asked.

"Yes, actually I am.....I thought you'll be resting back at the hotel." I replied and smiled at the bartender who placed the whiskey in front of me. I signaled the bartender with my fingers to switched the drink with Iddin's. The bartender obliged.

"Are you stalking me, Iddin?", I asked and looked side ways at him.

He smiled and replied, "What if I am....you are going to run to Hans and tell him....., what? Fazidin is stalking me? Do you think he's going to believe you?" sindir Iddin and he looked at me.

His reply sounded creepy. "Dance with me...", and he held out his hand. "Hans wouldn't mind....,come...", and he flicked his head back a sign for me to join him.

I hesitated. I drank my cocktail and stood up and placed my hands folded behind. Nope, I do not want to hold his hand. He walked next to me and started his dance moves. Oh my......serba salah aku di buatnya. Donna Summer's Hot Stuff was playing and I started to sway.....

We made our way on to the dance floor then he moved closer to me while I was dancing. He kept his moves simple and low key. His hand reached out for my waist and we just moved back and front in sync. He came closer and took my hand and spin me around. I am getting into the groove, my shoulders are moving and swaying.  I lift my hands and that was when he placed his right hip so it's glued to my right hip. Then, he takes his right leg and places it between my legs. I instantly wrapped one hand around Iddin’s  neck and he placed his hands on my hips.

Yup it was the dirty dancing moves....what have I got myself into now.....

....and I was in his arms. I ran my palm from his shoulder slowly down to his chest and I pull myself away. He spin me and pull me back. He wrapped my arm around his neck, bending me back and he reached my leg upward ....we laughed and walked off the dance floor back to the bar.

I saw Hans sitting and smiling. I approached him and gave him a kiss on the lips. He kissed me back and grabbed me by the waist.

"Hi Hans, I couldn't sleep so I decided to check this place out. I saw Atikah sitting alone. I hope you don't mind me asking her to dance....", Iddin explained to Hans. Hans smile broadly.

"Hans, I'm going to the little girls room and will be back. Can I get just club soda, please?" I told Hans and kissed him before I walked away.

"Sure, Babe....", and he playfully slap my buttock. I turned and he winked. Iddin saw me turned but he immediately look away.

"Woww....she is a good dancer. Couldn't keep up with her.", Iddin had to speak out loud since the music is getting louder and louder on the dance floor.

"Just don't get carried away, Fazidin. Dancing Queen is three weeks pregnant." Hans sipped his drink and looked at Iddin.

"She's what? Pregnant? Those moves......ghezz Hans. I am sorry I didn't know.....dancing in heals?" Iddin felt guilty about the spins movements a moment ago.

"Well I told her so but she has a mind of her own...You'll see when she's back here, she'll wanna dance again.", Hans said.

I saw both Hans and Iddin talking and laughing as I stepped out of the washroom. Walking straight a head I sat next to Hans and he passed me my club soda. I drank about half a glass and said, "Come on Hans one more before we call it a night.", aku memujuk Hans.

"See...? wasn't I right?", Hans said and looked at Iddin. Iddin nodded and raised his glass.

"All right, one more and then we go up and have a night cap before head back to the hotel.", Hans agreed with one condition.

"Okay! Let's go, they are playing Saturday Night Fever.....", and I pull Hans. Hans got up and quickly took off his sports jacket and threw it to Iddin. Hans grabbed me from behind and our body touched. I can feel his hot breath on my cheek. I rested my back against his chest. His hands was on my hips in circular motion. That was when I decided to let go. Lifting both of my arms I grabbed his neck. Let my worries, my pain, and sorrow go. Right here, right now I was living. Nothing else seemed to matter anymore; I allowed Hans to take me anywhere he pleased on this dance floor. He went right, I went right. He sped up, I sped up. We became one with the song, with the dance and with each other. I couldn’t help but smile to myself.

As we turn around, there stood Iddin in my full view. I could see him leaning against the bar counter with whiskey in his hands. And he was staring directly at me.....

Chapter 32 - Everytime You Go Away......

Part 1.

As we walked into Champagne and Oyster Bar the place was beautifully lit with candles at every corner and tables. It was a lovely evening and our favorite waiter Luigi, walked us to our table. We sat and ordered our drinks while waiting for our guest of honor. When you book into an expensive hotel such as Le Sirenuse you expect the staff to be attentive, courteous, and everything should be just right. Yes, everything felt exceptionally luxurious here......

Looking around I can see flickering lights coming from houses located on the hills really brings out a magical feeling. Simply beautiful....I feel like I was born to live here.

The wind was soft and breezy. I closed my eyes to reflect how much both Hans and myself have accomplished so far in our relationship. At times I would smiled to myself and tossed my hair back to feel the wind brushing against my face.

I opened my eyes and saw that Hans was simply looking at me with a smile. I took a deep breath and glee at him in embarrassment.

"Tell me the truth.....you love it here, don't you babe?" Hans leaned forward, gently grabbed hold of my hands. Without hesitation I hold his hands tight.

I nodded and again closed my eyes. "Beautiful place isn't it? And we are leaving soon? (I opened my eyes)....You've confirmed our flight reservations?", I asked.

"Ah..ha...", a short reply. "But if you are serious, I can set up an office and work from here....".

"An office here? Wow that would be awesome, wouldn't it? Thank you so much for the wonderful times I had in Rome and Positano. I am grateful for the opportunity and times we spent together. I hope we can do this again perhaps next time with our children?" I looked at his face and I can see a glimmer of excitement from the corners of his eyes.

"Babe, the pleasure was all mine. Remember this, I am not only your husband. I am your friend, your partner and your lover. Don't ever feel shy with me if and whenever you need help." Hans words was so reassuring.

"Thanks Hans. I love you." I said as I run my fingers vertically on his face.

He took my hand, kissed it and said, "I know......".

We shift our conversation about the interview tonight while holding each other's hands when I heard a voice from behind, "Hello Mr Hans Azman?"

Hans stood up and said, "Just Hans please. Mr Fazidin, thank you for coming and it's really good to meet you." Hans extended his hands and they both shook hands.

Fazidin...? I was shocked and I felt blood rushing straight to my head. I think I stopped breathing for a few seconds. I almost blackout when I heard that name! No, it can't be him! It can't be the Fazidin I knew back when I was in college. The guy I dumped when I was in the States. Please let it not be him.........

Unfortunately God didn't answer my prayers......I looked up and saw his face. "This lovely lady here is my wife, Atikah.", as Hans introduced Iddin to me.

Still seated I said politely, "Hello it's nice finally get to meet you. Mr. Fazidin right? Hans has told me a great deal about you. He is really impressed with your work." I lift my arm and shook his hands. I can feel him gripped my palm gently. And to my surprised he lift my arms and he bent a little to kiss my hand. Oh...my..., how classy of him.....

"Lovely to meet you, too. Atikah. Have we met before? Rasa macam pernah jumpa you...." he asked.

Well,..well,...well,...what do you know.....nice game you're playing Iddin.....nice one I should say. I just smiled but I could feel my face was flushing hot with embarrassment. I pull my arms slowly and took a sipped of my lemon and cherry cocktail. "Well, as they say, the world is round. Please, please have a seat.", I replied.

"Thank you. (He took a seat opposite of me...) Apologized if I interrupted your moment earlier. It looked kinda intimate. I apologized again." he asked.

"It's alright we were just discussing about work." Hans replied.

"Luigi, please get my special guest here,.....what would like to drink, Fazidin?" Hans asked.

"Southern Comfort on the rocks please..." Fazidin answered.

I instantly look up at him when I heard he ordered Southern Comfort. But he was already looking at me....as though he knew that will jog back the memories. "Huih, sejak bila dia pandai minum whiskey?", I said inside to myself. I quickly turned and look at Hans.

I felt uncomfortable sitting opposite of him. I need to maintain calm and be professional tonight. I don't want Hans to lose this guy. Hiring him is our objective tonight. Should I tell Hans about Iddin? I can't tolerate the fact that now and then he would steal quick glances at me even when Hans was talking to him.

"Come Fazidin, help yourself to the oysters. You cannot get it any fresher than here." Hans offered some to Fazidin.

"Hmm...yes it's really good. You are right, Hans." Fazidin tasted one and then took a sip of his whiskey. "So Atikah, are you working in the same architecture firm? You're an architect, too?".

Okay Tika, keep it cool and straight to the point, I said to myself. And smile.....

"Yes and no", I answered. "Yes, I am working for Tan Sri's firm as a consultant. And no, I am not an architect. I am currently doing HR work until Tan Sri finds a suitable candidate to fill up the HR Director position." I gave a girly smile to him.

I shift the conversation. "How was your flight?" I asked and rest my back against the dining chair.

"It was tiring. I flew from Perth to KL to meet a client and await connecting flight to Naples via Rome. Still experiencing jet-leg. Overall it was good." He explained and took another sip of his whiskey.

Someone is either very thirsty or.......pretty nervous here....and it is not me!

"Perth? You are still working in Perth?" Hans asked.

"I'm in between jobs. My wife lives in Perth and she likes it there. She went to school there and after we were married she stayed on in Perth while I commute back and forth between KL and Perth. But now, I wanna to be based in KL because my father is not in good health. I need to be with him." Iddin explained and looked at me again.

So he's married......and yes,...his father was a cargo ship captain...I remember that....

"And your wife,....will she be following you any time soon?"aku sibuk bertanya pulak.

"No. She can't stand the hot and humid weather kat Malaysia....", he laughed and continued, "Orang melayu Malaysia tetapi perangai tak macam melayu......We tried to live in KL but she had a hard time adjusting so we decided to go back to Perth.", we all laughed.

"Guys, please excuse me, as I need to make a few phone calls back to Malaysia. Need to call the office before they are closed for the day. I will be back in the moment." Hans got up and kissed my lips. That was a signal that the interview has begun.

Part 2.

"So it's a small world after all and look at you, you have changed so much....the last time I saw you,  you still had your braces on...." Fazidin started to bring back memories from 15 years ago. I knew the moment Hans left I will be the interviewee. "Why did you dumped me?"

Ouch! I folded my arms and rest them on the table. I did not expect him to be so direct. "Thank you for unfolding old memories." I said and his question was really intimidating.

"Iddin,....Excuse me I'm sorry. Fazidin, we are here for a casual interview. Tan Sri sees huge potential in you to expand your career in his company." I explained to him about the firm's intention.

"It's been a while I heard that name. You seorang saja yang call I, Iddin.", he stared at me and that gives me the shivers.

"Since when you started drinking? The Fazidin I know, doesn't drink." I asked and squeeze a piece of lemon on an oyster.

"People change. We evolved. Sometimes to be someone we hoped to be....", and he lift my piece of oyster. He put it close to his lips and suck in the tender crustacean into his mouth. He placed the empty shell back on the plate. Glup! I swallow my saliva as I watched him and felt like tearing apart his throat. Damn. That was my oyster!

"I'm sorry, did I ate yours?", he pretended to be surprised.

"It's okay.....", I replied and force myself to smile.

I am hating this conversation. Hans, please come back. Quick!

"Consultant, huh? Did you get the job because your father in law owns the company?", he saw Luigi passed by and asked for another whiskey.

I smiled and explained, "The HR Director left recently due to family commitment. And while they are looking for a replacement, I was hired on contract basis just for this assignment. We want to offer you a VP position with 15% shares".  You will sit on BOD and have a voting right."

"So you freelanced?" Iddin asked and sipped his whiskey.

"Occasionally, when my service is required. I have a full time job. Erk,...excuse me, I rasa macam I yang kena interview ni when it was supposed to be the other way round....." I am getting irritated by his attitude.

"Yes, I know your job. It's to hire me and get things done. Okay, let us shake on it.", and he held out his hand.

I was confused. "Shake on what?", I asked.

"The VP position. I accept the offer. Let's shake on it." he said again with full of confidence.

"Just like that? Wait, I am very confused here. I haven't fully explain your job scope and you are accepting the offer?, I asked.

"Does it matter? In my mind right now, I know I will be seeing a lot of you....", he said and still had his hand out.

It was an unwarranted feeling but I shook his hand anyway. He smiled and sipped his whiskey. "Welcome aboard to Hans & Hans.", I said and this means I have sealed the deal.

"Cheers...! Thank you and we have so many things to catch up...tell me more of what you do....I mean your full time job....", and he asked for another whiskey.

"Iddin, I think you've had enough. It's already your third glass." I advised him.

"What can I say, I am celebrating for a new job and thrilled to meet again the woman who dumped me once upon a time. And the funny part was I haven't the slightest idea why she did it. Every time I think, that is after you left me, you will take a piece of me with you.", Iddin whispered slowly and catch hold of my hands. I pull my hand back but he held on tight. The looked in his eyes told me that he has other plan to ruin me or maybe plotting a revenge for what I did to him 15 years ago.

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"Stop it Iddin. It's not nice if Hans sees you're acting like this.  I am his wife please have some respect at least towards Hans. Perhaps you had too much to drink already." I was angry but I controlled my voice. I looked around so that nobody is watching us.

"Ok,....I am sorry....", and he gave a smirked.

"Don't you smirk at me.", now I am really pissed off.

"I have never gotten over you Atikah.", he stared at me. I stared at him. "Big rock you have on your finger. Is that your wedding ring?", Iddin asked and wanted to touch the ring.

"Stop it Iddin....", I snapped at him.

"I gave what you wanted and now I deserve an explanation about what happened 15 years ago. Why did you dump me?" he insisted. He asked for another whiskey.

"Iddin, no more please. You are not thinking straight. How 'bout some coffee, alright?" I tried to persuade him.

"I am fine Atikah.....Luigi,...one more please. And whatever the lady wants..." I shook my head and signaled Luigi to go.

Chapter 31 - Sacred Kind of Love

Part 1.

We left Doctor Luca's clinic after results confirmed that I am 3 weeks pregnant. We were satisfied with the outcome of the urine test and ultra sound scanning. The doctor started me on folic acid and vitamin C (Redoxon). As we feft the clinic Hans said, "I am over excited that both you and the baby are in good health. I feel as though I'm the luckiest guy to have you, my two sons in my life and now we are having a baby. Alhamdulillah all worked out well." He hugged me and kissed me on my forehead. I looked up at him and I saw the twinkle in his eyes as he held back his tears.

"Hans, as God is my witness, I am grateful that I have you in my life. I pray that I will be a good wife and cool mom to all of our children. You are my strength....". I shared my feelings with him. We kissed and I sunk into the warmth of his body.

"Love you so much babe. Come, let's go back to the hotel. I am expecting an acquaintance to arrive today." Hans gave me a kiss.

"An acquaintance? Why so formal.......emmm do I know him? Is it Johan?" I'm puzzled by the news.

"Nope, you'll know when you meet him later. By the way, I am sorry but I have to bring this up.... you managed to give it a thought about the job offer? This acquaintance who is coming today is a talented architect and we want to hire him immediately.  But we can't do that without proper documentation. That was the reason I wanted you to take up Puan Mazni's position." Hans explained in length.

"Me? Hire this guy? Hans,....kerja gila la ni....I am not even employed and you want me to hire this guy? If you hire me now to do the work, siapa pulak nak draw up my contract?" aku bertanya.

"You will and I will sign it on the spot..." Hans said confidently.

"Is it legal? Check dulu dengan your legal department. I tak pasti what is the correct procedure. I left Malaysian Labor Law almost 10 years.", aku cuba menakut-nakutkan Hans.

"Ok. I will check with them but you know the position is yours the moment you agreed to it..... " Hans smiled and kissed my hand. He never gives up. Can't hate him for trying....

"Macam ni lah,....I make a deal with you. I will temporary take the HR position until you manage to find a suitable replacement. I will only work from home because I can't hold 2 positions at one time. Consider me like a consultant, an external consultant. Short term contract basis. Otherwise I will be fired from my current employment. Is it a deal?" I laid out the conditions.

"For now, I will take the deal on the table. But you know me Tika, I will never give up until you are permanent with us. That, I promise you." Hans was very firm about it.

"Let's meet this so call acquaintance of yours. You really want him bad, huh?" I asked.

"Yes, very bad. He has a very good reputation in KL market. He built his career in Australia after graduating from Curtin University. A few architect firms are checking him out. But I managed to convinced him to fly here just for an interview. All expenses paid. The interview obviously will be conducted by you...." Hans said.

"Hans, you ni melampaulah. Making decision without checking with me. You just drop the bomb on me. On our honeymoon pun I kena kerja ke.....remember I am pregnant and cannot handle much stress...." aku sindir dia and seolah buat-buat merajuk.

"I am sorry. I am guilty. I need this guy in the company and it was an instruction from dad to do whatever it takes to impress this guy. And I see that flying him here is a great opportunity to get to know him personally." To me he sounded very confident.

"Hmmm...I sure like to meet this guy...." I said.

"Oh yes, and you will....he's good looking and cool guy.....", and he kissed me. He was indeed thrill awaiting his guest arrival.

"Really?....Good looking, huh?", I replied and feeling annoyed. What am I supposed to feel? A third person joining our honeymoon? But I did not want that to damper our vacation.

"Hans can we go again to Music on the Rocks tonight? I feel like dancing. I had fun the other night." I gave him the sad puppy look.

"Sure, we can do anything you want. Tadi kata stress...remember you are pregnant and stop wearing heals okay?" Hans reminded me.

"I will be okay. I need my heels when I dance.", and flirtatiously I giggle at him. He grabbed my arms. "I am serious.....". I stuck out my tongue and stepped into the car. "Come on, Hans....! we're  gonna be late. Your guest will be arriving soon....."

Part 2.

After driving along the coastal road we headed back to the hotel. Leonardo met us at the hotel reception and informed Hans that his guest has arrived and checked in 15 minutes earlier. Hans requested to use the hotel phone and he made a call to this 'special guest'. I stood next to him and heard that we will meet him for dinner tonight at Champagne and Oyster Bar.

That afternoon we went out again to do a bit of shopping and later resume to our love nest for a room service. We sat on the bed and enjoyed hot chocolate. Hans insisted that starting this day onward I am not to drink coffee and tea because they contain caffeine. "Not good for the baby...", he said. That's not going to stop me from drinking my Caramel Latte.

We laughed and kissed. Munching on unsalted cashew and macadamia nuts. Now it's the salt's fault, "Too salty, high blood pressure." Hans has the answer to various old folks tales. I will treasure this moment. What I fear the most that he will change after the honeymoon is over. The feeling of insecurity is creeping up in me.

It was sunset and the view was exquisite. I stood by the balcony door and watch as the sun goes down. I recalled the time we were at the beach. I turned and look at Hans. He was on the phone talking to his 'special guest' whom he flew all the way from Malaysia. Okay, I will help him to get what he wants. I will use my beauty charm and my 'cosmopolitan' attitude to impress the mysterious guy.

We were all dressed up for dinner. My Hans was so gorgeous looking. He was in his shirt and sports jacket whereas myself in a sleeveless blouse and black pants. "I can see your baby bump...", Hans said and smiled.

"Really? Is it obvious? Then I should change...", I said and started to rub my tummy.

"Tak lah, I was just kidding. You always look fantastic. From the day I met you, you have never failed to impress me with your style of dressing. I have to take my hats off to you when it comes to fashion. You could make a torn jeans and a plain white blouse looked so stylish.", I was flattered by his compliments.

"Wah, pandainya you puji I. Macam ni I kena belanja you la ya?" I teased him.

"Hmmmm,....well, if you insist, how 'bout after we're back in our hotel room. You can give me a massage especially here....?" Hans was being naughty while his eyes pointing directly downwards.

"Hans!....bad boy!...." I shriek as he pull me closer to him.  His hands rested on my neck and he rubbed his thumb along my jaw and the way his tongue seemed to disappear inside my mouth as if he needed a part of me to breathe himself.

I pulled away a little so I can catch my breath. "I can't breath. You're wild this evening, Hans." I kissed him on his lips and walked away from him.

"Hey, where you're going? You malu dengan I? Husband you sendiri.....", Hans said as though he dared me to continue and not walked away.

"Huh? Malu? Mana ada malu. I wanna save the best part for tonight." and winked at him. His hands was fast. I felt a slap on my ass.

"Ouch! Sakitla Hans......". He laughed and came closer. He put his hands on my buttock and caress it gently. "I'm sorry, did I hit it too hard?", and he was still laughing.

"It's not funny Hans....." I said in a disappointed tone. "Okay, I minta maaf....malam ni you can hit me as much as you want....", he laughed again and I pinched his abs.

"Okay,....okay,.... we're even now....", his eyes cringed. And we ended up cuddling in each other's arm. I don't want to let him go.

From a distance we can hear the waves roar and splash hitting the edge of the cliff. I closed my eyes and in my mind I was listening to Grover Washington Jr. on saxophone serenading me with The Sacred Kind of Love.

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Still in his arms and we just let the time past by as we sway. I wish the whole wide world could know what a gift you are. Thank you for honest love, Hans.

"So, are we ready for dinner? Our guest will meet us at the restaurant.", Hans said as he run his fingers through my hair.

"Yes, I am ready on an unofficial duty..." aku perli dia. Hans kissed me again ever so gently on my mouth.

"Thank you babe...thank you for doing this." Hans gave me another hug, and hand in hand we walked out of our room heading to the Champagne and Oyster Bar.