Chapter 30 - Kissing You

Part 1.

"Why do you sound unsure? Of course I am thrill. Questions the doctor asked earlier was mind boggling. It kept playing in my mind again and again, that was when I came to the conclusion that you could be pregnant, babe. Aren't you happy if you are?" Hans words made me think maybe he is right. Yet I still could not answer him.

"We could do a pregnancy test. We can purchase the kit from a pharmacy and their results are 99.9% accurate. Or we could just wait until tomorrow at the clinic." I replied and started to walk towards the bedroom. I sat on the bed to control myself from shaking.

Hans who has been following me from behind also sat next to me. "Babe, what's wrong. You're shaking. Are you feeling cold?" Hans was concerned.

"I am just nervous Hans. Wowww,.....look...., look....., look at my hands....." I showed him my trembling hands. He hold my hands and looked at me. He hugged and stroke my hair. "It's going to be fine babe."

"I am scared Hans....it was just a few weeks ago I miscarried and what makes you so sure that I am pregnant again? Berpantang pun acuh tak acuh....." I question Hans.

"Well we made love regularly, for once. Anyway, I wish my answer can make you feel better but I am not God, babe. The doctor told us that you should be able to get pregnant after the D & C procedure. Okay, let's wait until our visit tomorrow at Doctor Luca's clinic..." Hans tried his best to comfort me.

"Ok we will wait until tomorrow. But......I think we should get the pregnancy test kit. A few boxes from different manufacturer. Come let's go...let's go....before I changed my mind." I was in a confused state.

"No you stay here. I'll go." Hans insisted.

"Ok...go....go....now....!" I said in a nervous tone.

Half and hour later Hans came back with bag full of pregnancy kit; 2 boxes of Clear Blue, 2 J. H. yicean, 2 Midstream, 2 Assured and 2 Healol.

"Aren't we way too excited.....banyaknya Hans..." I commented.

"Sorry if I over do it. We don't need to use all. We can save for later....." Hans looks so cute. That guilty face.

"Ok...how 'bout we do just 2 test. Clear  Blue is a must and .....Healol?" I suggested and picked out the 2 boxes.

"Let's go..." Hans said.

"No. I go and you stay..." I insisted and stopped him from stepping forward.

He nodded and watched me walk into the bathroom.

5 minutes later I came out and Hans was already standing in front of the bathroom door. "How is it?" he asked.

"So far so good. We just wait for the results. I am going to sit on the bed. You can go and see the results. Here,....the instruction for the results...." I get chills all over.

Hans walked in and he still hasn't come out after 5 minutes...."Hans? Hans?" I called out his name.

He stepped out of the bathroom. He was expressionless...

"So, am I pregnant?" I asked anxiously. He looked down and looked at me. "Yes, you are babe...!" and he came to hug me.

"For real?" I asked.

"Yes, for real..." Hans replied. I hugged him tight. But I don't quite know how I felt at the moment. I am still trying to digest the idea of being pregnant. "Okay, tomorrow we will confirm again with Doctor Luca." I said.

That afternoon we did not go out. I wanted to stay in bed and Hans was alright with it. He stayed with me, of course.....We ordered room service and after dinner we sat on the balcony.

Both of us were quiet  dan melayan perasaan masing-masing...I initiated a conversation. "Hans, you know I love you so very much....."

"Yes, babe. And you know I love you too. Something is bothering you, kan?" Hans knew something was wrong. "What is it? I'm guessing you don't want to get pregnant so soon? Is that it? I mean it was just over the shelf pregnancy test kit. It could be a false alarm.....right?" Hans knew what is on my mind.

"I tak mahu you salah sangka and biar I berterus terang. Yes, memang I takut and I am not ready. Especially lepas I miscarried. It's way too soon. But this is a gift from Allah. If it is confirmed that I am pregnant, I terima dengan hati yang terbuka. Full stop......as long as you will be with me throughout this pregnancy?" as I looked straight at him.

I stood up and walked over to Hans. He suddenly stood up too but he turned his back against me. I went over slowly to him and hugged him from behind.

"I am so sorry Hans, I had doubts. I panicked. I ada impian and I want to be able to achieve my dreams before......" I started to cry. Tears were rolling down my face as I slummed my face on his back. "It was selfish of me."

Hans was silent. I guess he must been very upset with me. I feel so embarrassed. Slowly I felt his hands pull up my hands and our fingers inter twine. He kissed them one at a time. But he said nothing. Not a single word. I start sobbing......

Part 2.

Hans let go of my hands. "It is my mistake too.....we should have discussed whether we wanted to start a family. Everything was going so fast....." and he stepped in the room and left me alone outside on the balcony.

I followed him inside and sat on the bed. "Hans, yes things were moving so fast. We know, at least I know I am excited to spend my life with you. But Hans, I am fine now. If it meant for us to start our family now, so be it. Insya Allah we can get through this. I am positive." I shared with Hans my point of view.

I looked at Hans as he stared at me. I waited for his response. Suddenly he walked up to me slowly and pulled me closer to him wrapping his arms around me. His embrace was warm, and his big, strong arms seemed very protective when wrapped around my frail body. The world around me melted away as I squeezed him back, not wanting the moment to end. Then he just collapsed on my lap. I just held on to him. "Babe, I can't live without you." he said. He looked up. Those beautiful eyes always turns me on. Slowly his body strength push me back as I laid on the bed.

I could feel the strength in his arms as he wrapped me tighter. As he embraces me, I can feel the life in him, the blood pumping in his veins, and the warm breath coming off his lips.

He bent down, his lips against my cheek, brushing it lightly. The light touch sent shivers made my whole body tremble. 

Then he whispered, "If you want me to stop, tell me now,". I did not say anything. My eyes was half closed......and he brushed his mouth against the hollow of my temple. 

"Or now." He traced the line of my cheekbone. 

"Or now." His lips were against mine.

Instead, I reached up and pulled him down on me, and the rest of his words were lost against my mouth. He kissed me gently, carefully, but it wasn’t gentleness I wanted, not now, not after all this time, and I pull him harder against my body. He groaned softly, low in his throat, and then his arms circled mine, and we rolled over on the bed, tangled together, still kissing.

"Oh Babe, you make me fall in love with you every time we make love. I love you with all my heart. Whatever challenges along our way, we will pull through and make it work." Hans whispered softly in my ears.

By now I am already drowning in his kisses and love talk. All I could do was moan, "Uhhh...oh Hans, feels so good.......".

Credit to Claude Harris and You Tube.

Chapter 29 - You are the first, My Last, My Everything

Part 1.

I woke up and lay in bed, just staring at the ceiling. It has been more than 4 months that I have been away from Malaysia and the thought of going back scares me. The day is getting closer and closer. Hans has to go back to his work. I know I have to move on with my life. I have gone through so much in the past four months. I truly appreciate Hans has been there for me every minute of the day. I'll be going back to my job and my new role as a wife and an instant mother to 2 teenage boys. Are they ready to accept me? Or am I ready to share Hans with them? And then there's the wedding dinner reception which are already on the way, all handled by Hans mon and my mama.

I got up and sat on the bed......my mind blanked out for a moment. I stood up and walked to the balcony and slide the sheer curtains to see the morning sun, fast creeping in. I am going to miss Positano and all the happy times I've spent with Hans on our honeymoon.

"Good morning precious...." I turned around and saw Hans was already awake. He was holding a room service menu. "You were staring out for a long time...." Hans said. I smiled and replied, "I am going to miss this place and most of all I am going to miss all the time we spent together...." I walked back to the bed.

"Hmmm.....i can see through you in that transparent nighty......You look hot...Come here babe.....", Hans memanggil aku

"Are you afraid? About going back home?" Hans asked and I nodded. "Babe.....you know I will always be there for you. I am not going anywhere." Hans tried to reassure me.

"I know.....I am nervous about being an instant mother to your children. I have never met them and I don't know if they can accept me....", I explained.

"Ummm....I understand....we will sit with them. We will prepare dinner and have a chat with them. We have nothing to hide. We tell them the truth." Hans already had his arms around me.

"You make it sound easy...." I said and snuggle like a kitten on his bare chest.

"Don't worry babe, insya Allah it will go well." he squeeze me and kissed my forehead.

"I'm going for my shower and you order room service okay." I said and slide off the bed. But then I suddenly felt a bit dizzy. I managed to balance myself and sat on the bed for a few seconds. What was that?......

I got off the bed and walked directly to the bathroom. Ok...it's gone now....I search for the song we heard last night at Music on the Rocks....."Yes, found it!"

Credit to ilia ciskarishvili and You Tube 

I pretended that my hair brush was a microphone and sang along to the song. I twist and spin and looked into the mirror how funny I was. Then I felt my head spinning again.....I quickly held on to the sink table....."Please, oh no.....is my vertigo back?" I whispered to myself. The song was still playing while I'm trying to catch my breath. I stood still and slowly sat down on the floor...."Should I tell Hans? No, perhaps it'll go away just like last time...." again I whispered to myself. This time it took a bit longer for me to recover and I got up slowly, brushed my teeth, washed my face with facial cleanser. I felt the room is spinning......"Hans!....Hans!.....I need you in here....now...." I started to panic and cry.

Part 2.

"Babe? Ya, Allah.....what happened?" Hans was already on the floor helping me up. He carried me in his arms, walked straight to our bed and sat me on the bed. He supported my head with another pillow. "Ok, just relax. I'll get the hotel to call for a doctor.". I closed my eyes, slide down, turn to my right and hugged a pillow.

A minute later...."Can you get up?" He helped me up. "Here, drink this. It's just water...."

"Babe, what happened? You look so pale." Hans sounded a bit panicky.

"I don't know....it could be my vertigo is back..." I answered and slowly lay down on the bed again. "I had it before, once.....a few months back. I did not expect it to revisit again."

"Alright, the doctor should be on his way. Just rest now...." Hans said and he lay next to me stroking my hair.

10 minutes later there was knock on the door. "Signore, this is Doctor Luca." Leonardo introduced to Hans.

"This way doctor." Hans came in the bedroom with Doctor Luka and he started to ask me questions which I answered him right away. I told him about my medical history. My last medical check up was October 2015 and I also mentioned about my vertigo.

Doctor : "Do you feel bloated?" He inserted a thermometer under my tongue.

Me : "Yes, sometimes but lately it has been quite frequent."

Doctor : "Do you experienced back ache?" He placed the stethoscope on my back.

Me : "Yes."

Doctor : "Do you feel tired especially in the afternoon?"

Me : "I never realized this but yes."

Doctor : "Do you go to the toilet frequent....arr...to do small business...?"

Me : "Small business....oh! you mean urinate? Yes, I do."

Doctor : "Do you feel like vomiting?"

Me : "So far none."

Doctor : "Hokay....I do not see anything serious but you come to my clinic tomorrow and we run one more test, ya? This is my card and Leoardo will take you to my clinic. For now take plenty of rest, do not stay too long outside at night and don't sleep very late. I give vitamin C. Hokay?"

Me : "Hokay!" Aku pulak terikut-ikut.

When the doctor left, Hans came back and sat next to me on the bed. "Are you comfortable?" he asked.

"Aha, I'm okay. Sorry about the......" Hans cut me off. "Shhhh...nothing to be sorry about. Why didn't you tell me that you had vertigo?"

"I had it once before and the doctor said nothing to be worried about since I did not have any inner ear problem or infection. Apparently vertigo also can appear as we grow older and it normally will go off without treatment." I explained.

"Are you going to be fine while I go and shower? " Hans asked.

"Of course, I'll be fine. I am all okay now." I replied. "I will order us brunch and we have it in bed, okay?"

"Sure. Babe you gave me a scare tadi....." he answered as he kissed me on my cheek. I smiled , "Sorry Hans...."

10 minutes later Hans came out looking all fresh, bare chested and in his jogging pants. Not that I mind looking at those lean and tone muscles but he is just like me, he has his favorites, and he has 5 of those pants in 5 different colors! Hah!

"The doctor was kinda weird. The questions he asked seems unreal...." I merely stating an opinion to distract my own attention from Hans half naked body.

Hans smiled. "He sure sounds like that way...." He agreed with me. He got up when he heard the doorbell. It was the room service with our brunch. Hans directed Vicenzo to placed the food tray on the bed.

While enjoying our brunch, we talked about music, sports and cars. He was so attentive towards me. One minute he'll be fluffing my pillows. The next minute he'll be adjusting my comforter.

"I think it would be bored to stay indoor. Can I convinced you to accompany me for a short walk outside?" I suggested. "I feel suffocated staying indoor."

"Well the doctor wants you to rest.....yeah, sure....let's walk around the village and later we can stop at Franco's Bar for drinks and snack. Let's go out and get some fresh air. I may not be a doctor but I know fresh air is good for you...." I laughed and he helped me up of the bed. I went to the changing room while he tagged along from behind.

"Excuse me....can I get some privacy when I change my clothes?" I insisted.

"Sure." Hans replied.

"Well, go lah....I nak tukar baju" I said.

"Tukarlah, I am not stopping you from doing it....I have to be here in case anything happened to you." He said.

"Urgh!! I am fine Hans...." as I stripped in front of him. I shouldn't feel shy right? After all he's my husband....

"So, you're enjoying the view from behind?" I teased him.

"Indeed I am. Here, let me help you with the zip." He offered to help.

"Oh? Okay, thanks." I replied and lift my hair up. I can feel the zip slide up slowly. When he's done he let my hair down and turn me around facing him. Both of his hand are on my face and he kissed me passionately. The feeling is mutual as I kissed him back.

"When was your last period?" Hans suddenly asked as he looked at me.

"Mmmm....I don't know, let me think...hey....why do you ask that?" I asked.

"I don't know babe, but I have a feeling it wasn't vertigo. I think you, or rather we are pregnant...." he said sounded excited.

"Oh my....if it's true,....are we happy about this....?" aku inginkan kepastian Hans.

Chapter 28 - What You Won't Do For Love

Part 1.

"Babe? Hello, earth calling....Are you still in Italy or you're somewhere else?" Hans whispers softly in my ears. That startled me.

"Hey, terkejut I. Oh,....trying to be funny ya?"I splash the water at him...

"Wowww,....basahlah I." He stepped back and wiped of the water on his arms and face. I felt bad of what I did.

"Babe, anyway it's 3 pm and I am going out for a while to meet Leonardo. Just wanna check out what else we can do while in Positano. Don't stay too long in the tub." He gave me a quick peck on the lips.

"Bikini in your own bath...hmmmm.....I don't understand...." he gave a cheeky smile and left the room.

"Enough Hans....." I spoke up and smiled to myself. "Alright see you later...." I whispered softly almost to myself and closed my eyes.

My muscles feels so relax. The effect of the water is soothing and you start having a nice feeling inside you. The best way I can describe it is like a little smile covers your whole body. When you get out, you don't feel wiped, but you do feel a little happier. Water temperature is quite important cause if you put on at 104 degrees (40 C) it will relax your muscles, but at 98.6 degrees (37 C) it will relax your soul......

I got out of the hot tub and took a quick shower. I put on a short dress and poured myself a glass of apple juice. While waiting for Hans, I switched on the television in case there are news on the recent earthquake. It was on every local TV channel. My eyes were fixed on the news that I did not notice Hans was standing next to me....

"Hi Babe. It doesn't look good. Do you want to contact UNDSS? Go ahead." Hans said while his hand rubbed my back.

"I will e-mail the Security Officer. Thanks Hans. Thanks for being very supportive." I thanked him and he kissed on my head. Ya know,....those minor, small gestures really means so much to me. A rub on the shoulder once in a while, the kiss on my forehead and most of all my favorite was when he kissed my palms. It always gets to me.....so honest.

"Forget about it....(with Godfather accent....boo....hoo....)" and he winked.  Ha...ha...ha... I find it hilarious.

E-mail sent.

I found Hans sitting on the balcony and looking out at the surrounding view..., "Hi sexy." I hugged him from behind. "So what's the plan this evening?" I asked.

Hans turned and stood up facing me with both hands already on my hips. He kinda sway a little and kissed on my left neck and then my right neck. Hmmm.....goosebumps all over me. I followed his lead as we stepped back into the room. With one arm still around my hips he used the other hand to pull down the sheer curtain and hugged me passionately. "I love you babe...." Hans said softly.

"If you are ready, let's go for a drive and we'll stop by the beach." and continued to kiss me but this time on my lips......

"In a car..............?" I was weak to my knees. I felt the sensation from his breath circling my ear as I toss my head back.

"Ah..ha...a convertible car....(he looked at me and nod a few times), packed dinner for us. Lepak an hour or two, see the sunset and a night cap then kita balik to the hotel....how does that sounds?" Typical of Hans. Always full of surprises.

"Okaayyy....I was thinking something like an indoor activity....but now your idea is so tempting. Alright it's on......" I kissed him......."Let me change into something light." And I agreed to go.

Part 2.

As we stepped out of Le Sirenuse, Leonardo was already there, standing next to a blue convertible sport car. All smiles....he is such a dear.

I went over to him and gave him a kiss on his cheeks. "Signora, you make me embarrassed..." and he kissed me back both my cheeks.

"I packed a beach bag and dinner basket for you. Hope you enjoy your time at ta beach." Leonardo explained. Hans came over and open the car door and I slide in to the front car seat. He thanked Leonardo and passed him some tips. Leonardo smiled, "Grazie Signore." he said.

"This is very sweet of you, Hans. You amazed me. You really know how to impress a woman. And I really appreciate your effort." I kissed him hard on the lips.

"Things I would do for love, babe." He started the car engine. "Are you ready?" he asked.

I nodded. And off we go for a joy ride.

The weather was perfect. I let the wind in my hair, the sun on my face and the smell of nature instead of the chill of air conditioning. It was exhilarating. At times I looked at Hans. Then lay my head on his shoulder and he would have one arm around me. I feel loved.

Finally we arrived.

Fornillo Beach is a secluded beach. The only access is by a romantic path that climbs west and  you can reach its lovely beach. If you’re looking for a more quiet day, away from the crowds, but don’t want to travel outside of Positano, this is your best bet. This time of the year the crowd are smaller as it is approaching fall season and getting cooler.

We found a spot and spread the beach towel on the sand. We sat down  and Hans took out the food prepared by Leonardo. There were egg and tuna sandwiches, various type of cheeses, bread, green and fruit salad. Hans poured lemon and mint cocktail in a flute and pass it to me. "Thanks Hans..." I thanked him and smiled. I took a sip. I raised one eye brow. It's a sign of approval that deserved to be be celebrated. I raised my flute glass at him, "...Salute...".

"Would it be alright if I switched on to Sportify? To get the mood going......" I asked Hans.

"Sure. Allow me.... by the way I have this one particular song that I want to share with you." His fingers was moving fast on the cellphone screen searching for the song.

"Tika, if you are ever in doubt about our relationship the lyrics has significant meaning how much I found the kind of love I was looking for......" He smiled.

"Hans, you ni.....jiwang jugak ye?" I giggled as I teased him. He laughed. "Tak ada orang dalam dunia ini yang tidak jiwang, babe......" He responded to my question.

Credit to Awit4U and You Tube.

I guess you wonder where I've been

I searched to find the love within

I came back to let you know

Got a thing for you

And I can't let go

My friends wonder what is wrong with me

Well I'm in a daze from your love you see

I came back to let you know

Got a thing for you

And I can't let go

Some people go around the world for love

And they may never find what they dream off

What you won't do, do for love

You tried everything

But you won't give up

In my world only you

Make me do for love

What I would not do

My friends wonder what is wrong with me

Well I'm in a daze from your love you see

I came back to let you know

Got a thing for you

And I can't let go

Though I only want the best it's true

Can't believe the things I do for you

What you won't do, do for love

You've tried everything

But you won't give up

In my world only you

Make me do for love

What I would not do

Part 3.

Selesai mendengar lagu tadi yang di popularkan oleh Bobby Caldwell aku mengangguk menandakan it was a quality and meaningful song. "I understood the lyrics.What you won't do for love....." I blurted out. I had my knees up to my chest and my head rested on my knee.

"Was that your take on the song?" Hans asked and looked at me.

"Well, a very good song. I like it. I have heard of it before but never appreciate the lyrics until now." I explained. "I mean one has to be really in love to actually feel how much a song can bring out the best in them. One could feel happy, sad, mysterious, jealous, hurt from each word.....such a punch in the face. To the listener it is a connection and be in another dimension..........which can either be reality or fantasy. The lyrics were direct yet colorful and they don't write like that anymore today. That's my take on the song....." I face at the open sea.

Hans laughed and slide closer next to me. Then he started to sing....."Some people go around the world for love, and they may never find what they dream off. What you won't do, do for love,  you tried everything but you won't give up. In my world only you....."

"Hmmmm....wow he can sing too......." aku tersenyum meleret dan melagakan bahuku ke bahunya dengan manja.... "I get how you feel....and I am flattered, very much. Thank you. I love you to moon and back. By the way did you know he was named the best new black artist by Billboard Magazine? But he's not black.." I understood his feelings and at the same time show off a bit of my music knowledge.

"Like a punch to my face, as you say....."he said. He playfully grabbed my neck and hold me in his arms. I laughed. "Pandai pun...."

We ate, talked, ate and walked along the beach. I took pictures of the sunset and it was such a delight staring at the sun going down. Then we decided to pack as it was getting darker. It will be a long way up to the car.

When we reached on top, Hans placed the picnic basket in the back seat. He pulled me closed to him and placed his hands around my waist. "There is one last place I want to take you tonight. It's 5 minutes drive from here and called The Music on the Rocks."

I placed my arms around Hans waist and looked up at him. "You see, I am in a daze from your love. Just take me anywhere. As long as I am with you......" I said and he lean forward to kiss my lips. I let him hold me tight in his arms while my arms are moving everywhere on his back. I held on tighter and lean my body press hard against his. He had to lean against the car for support.....We were in that position another few seconds and Hans slowly open the car door. Lead me into the car, I sat and Hans closed the door. His hands rested on the side of the door and he bent down as I looked up.....a kiss on my lips...and again. I ran my fingers vertically on his face. He grabbed it and kissed my palm.

The drive to Music on the Rocks took only 5 minutes. Established about forty years ago and is said as one of the clubs most original and beautiful in the world, built inside a cave, with access from the Spiaggia Grande of Positano. It has two levels, the dance floor with live music, lounge and disco. Upstairs in the fashionable Restaurant Rada where you can enjoy fine cuisine with Mediterranean flavors and also delicious pastry creations.

We stayed a while for a few drinks, watched the crowd and hit the dance floor to classic disco songs. We had a fantastic time. Then we went upstairs for a night cap. It was past midnight when we left the discotheque back to the hotel.

Chapter 27 - Suddenly....

Part 1.

The next morning I woke up and saw the balcony door was wide opened. I got up and walked to the balcony and saw breakfast perfectly placed on the table. I went back in and I find myself alone in the room. Perhaps he has gone out for a while. I notice Hans acted a bit strange and quiet at times. Was he thinking too much about his work? Was he restless finding Puan Mazni's replacement. Then, there was last night's proposal pun macam so abrupt. I hope I am just imagining things.

I sat at the balcony enjoying the view of beautiful houses built on the hills. As Italians would say, Bellisimo. While drinking my orange juice I heard Hans voice. "Good morning precious.....isn't it a fantastic day? I was at the reception to arrange our boat trip this morning. You're up for an adventure?" Hans was all smiles and to me it felt so strange.

"Happy-nya you this morning...." I said and Hans took his seat opposite of me.

"I am refreshed....perhaps the air here is much more cleaner." as he took a bite of the muffin on his plate.

"You're sure you're alright?" I asked him. He replied, "Babe, I am fine lah..." he smiled and finished his muffin. "Now you go and take your shower and let's get ready for the boat trip. Please don't forget my sunglasses. Thanks."

I sat there and stared at him wonder what's going on here. I picked up my glass of orange juice and sipped it slowly while I stared at him.

"Aren't you going to take your shower?"Hans asked and looked back at me.

"Can I finished my breakfast first? I heard you the first time." I answered back at him.

"Wow, someone got up on the wrong side of the bed this morning..." he made an insinuation which I think is not funny.

"Hans, I don't know what's going on here but you macam sengaja cari pasal dengan I.....let me finished my breakfast and then I will go and take my shower.  Capisce?" I replied and placed my fingertips under the chin pointing toward the neck, then swiftly flicked outward towards him. That was how pissed off I am of with him. I stood up and walked away from him.

Ghezz,  Hans....what's going on?........

Part 2.

I tried my best to forget the incident this morning and forced myself to have a great time. Deep down I'm lying to myself. I want to know why he is acting differently towards me.

We laughed when the water splashed on us during the boat ride. I faked all my laughter.....

When he asked whether I'm enjoying myself, I said awesome. I was lying through my teeth......

I tried as much not to have an eye contact with him cause if I do, I will melt and fall right into his arms. When we arrived at the jetty, Hans held my hands and we walked up to a few cute shops around the small town. We also stopped by Emporio Le Sirenuse. I adore their beach wear.....

I bought a few pieces of clothing, sandals and other souvenirs. I know I want to come here again. So much fun shopping in the narrow streets and in the back alley. Most of the items sold here are locally made. Then we walked back to the hotel. Leonardo the concierge greeted us and was kind enough to carry our shopping bags into the hotel. He said that lunch is already waiting for us in the dining area. Lunch? 

Leonardo walked next to me and asked, "Ah Signora, dida you henjoy the boat ta ride?"

"Yes, Leonardo I did and thank you for asking. So lunch is ready?" I answered.

"Si. Your husband made a special arrangement this sa morning. We hope you like it." Leonardo explained.

"Momento Signora,.....scusi" Leonardo excused himself. Hans who stood next to me kept quiet the whole time. He looked at me and smiled. I squint my eyes at him.

"Da questa parte por favore signora..." Leonardo led us to our table. It was the best seat in the restaurant and away from other restaurant patron.

"Grazie Leonardo, grazie."I replied. Hans sat opposite me. He looked at me and asked for my hand. I put my right hand on the table and he slowly reached out for it. 

"First of all I wanna apologized to you if the proposal last night came as a surprised."Hans started off the ball running.

My palms are getting sweaty. I looked him straight in the eyes. "You're starting to make me nervous. What's going on? The proposal last night, breakfast on the balcony, boat ride, shopping spree and now confession over lunch. Something fishy I should know about? You're nuts."

"Nothing fishy. I am really enjoying myself. It has been a while, for me. It's the truth......" He stopped when the drinks arrived.  

"Come on Hans, you can do better than that......" and at the same time I tried to pull away my hand from his gripped. He pulled back hard.

"Hey, look at me, babe, don't do that. You're breaking my heart.........., I agreed to give you time to think about the proposal. I am just anxious await your decision ....." Hans explained and caressing my fingers.

"Are you putting pressure on me? It has been,....what?.....less than 12 hours Hans." I pull my hands back and place it closer to my end of the table. 

"Ok...ok....I won't do it again. I promise I will give you as much time you need." His words seems genuine. I trust him. He asked for my hand again. I kicked his foot under the table. He cringed to withstand  the pain.  And I hold his hand. "I hate you." I said.

"No you don't." he said and gave me the look. His eyes sparkle and when those crow feet appeared I know he is being genuine. I found this almost unspeakably attractive in Hans.

"Come, let's enjoy our lunch." Hans memujukku.

(Credit all pictures from La Sponda and Google Image)

No doubt La Sponda is the best.

Part 3.

After lunch we went back straight to the room and rest. Hans asked, "What do you have plan for this afternoon?"

"Nothing actually. I think I may want to take a dip in the tub and relax. Just a lazy afternoon for me. Listen to some old songs and let them take me to places...." I replied while I change into my bathing suit.

"Do you want to be alone when you travel back in time? Or can I join you later, perhaps?" Hans memerliku.

"Perhaps......later but not so soon....."I said as I left him in the bedroom reading the newspaper.

"By the way why do you need a bathing suit. I mean you're in your own room, right? What is that of yours I have not seen?" Hans asked.

"Shut up Hans!"I said out loud from the bathroom. I dipped into the hot tub and faced towards the view from the glass window. I put on Sportify of songs from the 80's and felt calm and relax. Careless Whispers, Eternal Flames, Hello, Wild Thing, Tell It To My Heart and lots more. But what touched me this afternoon was Billy Ocean's Suddenly.

Credit BillyOceanVevo and You Tube

I used to think that love was just a fairy tale

Until that first hello until that first smile

But if I had to do it all again I wouldn't change a thing

'Cause this love is everlasting.

Suddenly

Life has new meaning to me

There's beauty up above and things we never take notice of

You wake up and suddenly you're in love.

Girl

You're everything a man could want and more.

One thousand words are not enough to say what I feel inside

Holding hands as we walk along the shore

Never felt like this before

Now you're all I'm living for

Suddenly

Life has new meaning to me...

There's beauty up above and things we never take notice of

You wake up and suddenly you're in love

Each day I pray this love affair would last forever huhuhu….

Suddenly

Life has new meaning to me...

There's beauty up above and things we never take notice of

You wake up and suddenly you're in love

There's beauty up above and things we never take notice of

You wake up and suddenly

You're in love.

Chapter 26 - Good Bye Rome, Hello Positano with Only You.

Part 1.

Credit to jeelake's channel and You Tube

We arrived at the airport and checked in our luggage. Since we had more than an hour to spare before boarding we hang out at the Sky Lounge Bar.

The Sky Lounge Bar combines quality catering and entertainment offers sophisticated dishes, cocktails and high level coffee in a comfortable, elegant, modern environment with table service. I ordered Caramel Latte and took out my laptop and start to update my blog.

We landed at Capodichino International Airport in Naples after one and a half hours flight. A private car was waiting to take us to Le Sirenuse, in Positano which will be another hour and a half journey by car. Positano is located on the Amalfi Coast, 55 km south of Naples.

After watching 'Only You' 20 or so years ago I never imagine myself being here one day. Well, what do you know.....I am here and it's for real! I fell in love with Amalfi Coast the moment I am done with the movie. The scenery along Amalfi Coast was splendid and beautiful with houses built on the cliffs or hills (whichever you wanna call) and the narrow road leading to our destination.

From the moment we stepped into the hotel, the staff at Le Sirenuse really exceeded my expectations. It starts with the check in process. It isn't just the warm towels and the fresh lemonade during check in, but the real attention that the staff pays that sets it apart. We had a thorough introduction to the amenities of the hotel, and not the usual quick run through of the pool is here, the restaurant there. The staff accompanied us to our room to explain its amenities as well.

Le Sirenuse  is a wonderful place from which to enjoy the simple pleasures of Positano and the spectacular Amalfi Coast. From what I was told all of their rooms are individually different from one another. They are decorated with antique and contemporary furniture from Europe and the East. Most rooms and terraces are 70 meters above the sea have a breath taking view.

As I walked in our one bedroom suite I was mesmerized by the classic furniture and its setting. I peeked into the bathroom. They are made of marble and decorated with handmade tiles.

I looked at Hans and we both smile. “You like it?” he asked and held out his right hand. I took his hand as we walk to the balcony.  It was sunset and the view was exquisite overlooking the bay of Positano. “I love it very much. Thank you for making it happen….” as I lean against his right arm. He lift his arm moved and placed them on my shoulder. He squeezed me gently and kissed on my head. Then we just cuddle in each others arm. We sway but there was no music. The tune was playing only in our heads.

Part 2.

Le Sirenuse was the idea of the Sersale's siblings which was opened in 1951. They turned their summer house in Positano into a hotel, today it is considered one of Italy’s leading seaside luxury hotels. Le Sirenuse is beautiful, we had room 93 which is a suite with a lovely balcony to relax on. I love this hotel. What a brilliant idea to open a hotel on this spot.

That night we changed for dinner. The Champagne & Oyster Bar enjoys breath taking views over Positano. The place was lit with candles. It is the ideal place for a glass of champagne (if you are into alcohol) or a cocktail made to perfection. They serve fresh oysters, shellfish, and fish Carpaccio. Their mouth-watering menu also offers grilled and fried Mediterranean specialties, pasta, rice dishes and other delicacies, all accompanied by the seducing music of the resident DJ.  

We didn't speak much that night. We were just enjoying the sound of the ocean, the cool breeze, the music and each other's company. Hans looked so relax and handsome in his dinner suit. At times we kissed, hold hands and brushed our legs under the table....acting naughty.

I can't quite put my finger on what it is but this is without doubt one of the most special places I’ve been. The atmosphere is cool and unpretentious; surprisingly I’ve only been here for a few hours.

When we were done with dinner, we decided to walk along the pool while enjoying the view overlooking the bay of Positano.

“I have an important proposal for you. I hope when I am done explaining you will think seriously about it.”Tiba-tiba Hans bersuara.

“Oh? A proposal? Sounds very important?"I responded. "By the way you have been very quiet tonight....."

“Have I? I must have been a boring date tonight?" Hans replied

"Well,...not really. I get to discover more about you, your character and I have them all written at the back of my mind. For future reference...mmmm...." I stopped and watched the waves far out into the ocean.

"You are such a funny girl....and I've never met anyone like you. You can be a classy lady at one moment and you can just shift like an excited child the next minute. You are so unique. One in a million. And I love you more and more each day." Hans expressed his feelings.

I turned and looked at him. The best feelings is when I looked at him he was already staring at me. "Lady like? Excited child? Hmmmm.....like a chameleon?" and I walked closer to him. I brushed my finger on his hair as he pull down my hand. He placed my hand on his chest and said, "Yes, like a chameleon...my one and only."

His words made me giggled...."Ok, what about the proposal? as we continued to walk.

"How would you like to work with my dad’s firm? We have a position vacant in Human Resources Division. It will be such an honor to have you come on board.” Hans laid out his proposal. I stopped walking and we looked at each other.

“Wow, this is so sudden….I don’t know. I love the job I have now……” I explained but Hans interrupted, “You do not have to decide anything yet…..at least think about it.” With his pointer finger he tilted my chin and kissed me softly.

“How long has it been? How long have you been thinking about this?”aku bertanya lalu menoleh ke arah laut……

Hans hold my hand, “It’s been a while.…..Puan Mazni tendered her resignation about a month ago. She's following her husband who recently got promoted and will be starting at his new Tokyo office in October. I do not have her replacement yet. I checked out your resume, please don’t be angry….Linkedln helps a lot.  Tika, you will be great for the position. The salary is good and flexible perks comes together with the position such as bonuses, company car, travel and entertainment.” 

"I see,....it's a huge responsibility Hans, and kinda high position that you are offering me. Let me think about it, alright. I don't know whether I am capable to handle since I've left Malaysian labor law and policy almost 10 years. But if I turn down your offer I tak mau you kecil hati ya..." I warned him. "I am not worried about the salary and perks you're offering. Gaji I sekarang pun sudah cukup bagi I. I have big plans, you know. I wanna work abroad in different country offices to gain as much experience as I possibly can. We can travel at the same time. I just don't wanna be stuck at one place."

"Ok, I understand and I will support whatever your decision. Please think about it and if you decide otherwise....there will be no hard feelings." Hans promised. We kissed and walked back to our room.

Part 3.

I told Hans I was tired and want to go to bed early. He said he will follow soon. He has a little bit of work to do, reply a few e-mails and phone calls to his dad and Johan. Perhaps he missed so much his weekend activities with Johan; all the bike rides and male bonding. He was sitting at the writing table and I came from behind, wrapped both my arms around him. I kissed him on his head and said good night. He wrapped his arms around mine and gave me a kiss. I gave him one last hug, let go and walked into the bedroom.

"Assalamualaikum dad,...how are you?" Hans asked.

"Great. We are having a fantastic time. We are in Positano at the Le Sirenuse Hotel. Tika loves this place.She has such an impeccable taste when it comes to traveling. It's beautiful here. You should bring mom here for your anniversary." Hans answered.

"I am glad both kids are with you now...Is Mummy Rozario ok with the arrangements?"

"Yes, I did. I told here about Puan Mazni vacant position. She needs time to think about it. She said it would be a huge responsibility taking over Puan Mazni's position. Basically she felt she is not qualified. She loves her current job, dad."

"I know....I know she is smart but I have my way of dealing this issue with her. No worries dad she will definitely take the offer. I'll make that happen and just considered it's a done deal."

"Once she on board her first task is to hire Faz, dad. He's young and full of ideas. He's the top architect in town. Insya Allah, we will also bring him on board."

"Will do. Regards to mom please and you guys take care."

Hans walked in the bedroom and saw Tika sleeping in his T-shirt again. He smiled and crawled into bed. Hans pulled Tika closed to him......,"I'm counting on you babe....." he whispered softly.