Chapter 36 - Kiss of Life

Part 1.

I rush back to my room and didn't look back. How could he do that to me...and how could I kissed him back. Damn.....do I still have have feelings for him or was he just playing tricks with my mind?

I stepped into the room and make sure the door is properly locked. I stood and lean against the door.

"Babe is that you?" I heard Hans calling out for me. I composed myself and walked slowly to where he was sitting.

I sat. "Yup, it's me...." and I smiled but Hans gave me a funny look. Oh my should I tell him that I kissed Iddin?......"Why are you giving me that look?, I said and feeling guilty.

"You didn't have that on when you left earlier..." Hans spotted the sweater I had on. Oh shit! I am wearing Iddin's sweater.

"I forgot my jacket. It was cold outside so Fazidin loan me his sweater....", and I immediately took it off and threw it on the couch. "

"So, how did it go?" Hans was arranging his document into his briefcase.

"Okay I guess, but...." I stopped and lay down on the couch. Hans came over and sat at the other end of the couch. He lift my feet and massage them gently.

"Oooo...it feels so good..." I said sambil memejamkan mata.

"But.....come on tell me...." Hans wants to know what happened.

"Dia tu menyakitkan hati. I don't understand why is it so difficult for him to accept what past is past. Dia tu benggapla....", as I told Hans and at the same time criticizing Iddin.

"Tak baik you cakap orang benggap....", he smiled and keep on massaging my feet.

"Are you defending him?" I got up and looked at him. Hans giggled....

"No I am not defending him, I merely telling you it is not nice to call people names....that's all", Hans explained.

"I wanna go to bed....I don't wanna to talk about this anymore. I met him. I explained, I apologized and too bad if he has a hard time accepting the facts." I stood up but Hans hold my arms.

"Listen, for me I presume this issue dah settled, okay. Just go on with your life, our lives. If he gives you problem again....I'll shot him!" he said. Terbeliak mata aku mendengar.....

"Just kidding lah...you ni tak ada sense of humor la....", Hans giggled and hugged me.

"You ni suka sangat main-mainkan perasaan I....satu hari nanti betul-betul dia rampas I dari you, baru you tahu.....", aku mengenakan dia balik.

"Really? You think so.....then I'll shot him twice", aku mencubit Hans and he started to tickle me.

"I love you Hans....", I said and just fell into his arms. We stayed there in each others arm. Then he swiftly carried me and walked over to the bed. He unzipped and helped me take off my jeans and I slide under the covers. "Stay. Let me go and change. It won't take a minute." he said and left me thinking what he's up to next.

The lights was dimmed and I saw his shadow walking towards me....As he came nearer I can see his well built physic.....I melted. I took a deep breath as he bend over me to give me a kiss. I scooped over so that he can lay down next to me....he had one arm under his head just like the reclining Buddha. We looked at each other....."Close your eyes...." Hans said.

"Close my eyes? Why?", I asked.

"Shhhhh......just close your eyes.....", he said again. And I closed my eyes.....suddenly I can hear a smooth jazz music in the back ground....Hans kiss me on my lips and pulled me closer into his arms. "I love you back...". we fell a sleep in each others arm..........

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Part 2.

The next morning when I woke up I saw that Hans was laying on his side and staring at me.

"Good morning Precious.....I said to myself if I kept staring at you, you will open your eyes sooner or later....", he whispered. I closed my face with my palms.

"How long have you been staring at me....stop staring at me.", I said. I run my fingers on his face and he grabbed hold of it.

"You like to do that kan?" he asked.

"Do what?" I asked back at him.

"Like what you just did,...running your fingers vertically on my face." he explained.

"I don't know. It's only with you I do that, really. If you are not comfortable with it, I'll stop." I said and looked at him.

"Please don't. I know it's your signature touch and it makes me feel special." Hans said and he does the same on my face. "Any significant meaning?"

"I don't know. Never gave it a thought. It's like I love you...and I am here with you", I replied. I kissed him. "So what's the plan today? What time do we have to leave Positano?" I asked Hans.

"We still have lots of time. We'll shower, have breakfast and finish packing. Our car will be ready by noon to take us to Naples." Hans replied.

"Okay....", I said.

"Okay...", he replied. And we both laughed. We just lay in bed, cuddling and kissing each other.

Later we showered to get ready for breakfast. The thought of bumping into Iddin again terrifies me....Please, I beg Iddin, please leave me alone.....

We walked in the dining room and Hans spotted Iddin eating alone. "Morning Fazidin. Are you all packed? We will leave the hotel around noon." Hans said.

"Hi, guys. Well I'm almost done with packing. I travel light. You guys wanna join me for breakfast?" Iddin looked at me and I turn my head around looking for other unoccupied tables.

"Babe, you're okay with it?" Hans asked. I smiled and said,"Sure", and I sat down. What more could I say......takkan la aku nak tunjuk tantrum aku di sini.

"I'm going to get something to eat...", Hans said and I instantly replied, "I'll come with you....". I am not ready to face Iddin just yet. Iddin just buried his face in his scramble eggs. Malu agaknya now that he knows Hans knew what's going on.

After selecting my breakfast I walked over to the table and Hans was not there. Should I sit alone with Iddin? I don't think I am ready to be alone with him. I had my plate of food and a glass of orange juice in my hand when I saw Iddin looking at me. I had no choice but walked straight and took a sit at his table. I sat quietly and ate my breakfast. I still kept a look out for Hans.

"Hans mentioned that he will be at the reception and settling payment for the hotel rooms.", Iddin suddenly speak up.

"Oh okay....thank you....", I said.

"Are you alright? You ran off last night without thinking about your safety...", Iddin asked.

"My safety? What could go wrong in the hotel premise?", I asked him back.

"Did you forget that you're pregnant? Kalau apa-apa terjadi pada you malam tadi, for example you jatuh ke,....susah I pulak...",Iddin voiced out his concern.

"Nothing happen kan...semua okay....so you have nothing to worry....I can take care of myself...", aku menjawab dengan selamba.

"Sombongnya! Well one thing for sure I can feel that your kiss was real....Tasted much better without your braces.", Iddin passed a remark.

"Really? Terima kasih...." I replied, got up and walked away from the table. I didn't even finished my breakfast.

"Atikah!", Iddin called out my name. "Please jangan lah macam ni. Please sit down and finish your breakfast." Iddin said. He was already standing and walking towards me. He pleaded......"Come on Atikah.....nanti baby you lapar sebab you tak makan", he said.

"Pandai-pandai je you ni......", I walked back to the table and sat down. He lean back against his chair and stared at me. I looked at him and suddenly I giggled. "This is so ridiculous....baby lapar...anyway...I am sorry for acting childish...can you stop staring? Apa lagi? Makanlah...?" I said.

Iddin smiled and for the first time we had a descent conversation and not talk about our past....and I like the new Iddin......

"I have two kids so I tahu macamana nak dapat attention dari a pregnant lady...." he said and we continue to eat and small conversations......anyway what does having two kids has to do with him getting pregnant women's attention?....ahhhh....I get it....perasan!

That afternoon the three of us shared a limousine and left Positano. I am going to miss this place. "Don't worry babe, we'll be back here sooner than we than we thought.", Hans promised. I smile and looked out the window staring at the open sea.

We took a connecting flight from Naples headed for Rome before we get on Air Emirates. Baggage was cleared and there was no excess baggage charges. I was drained out and tired....

Hans took the aisle seat and I had the window seating. Iddin was seated in the opposite aisle.

I slept for most of the flight journey and only woke up when dinner is served. Hans woke me up once we were about to land in Dubai. We will catch another connecting flight to Kuala Lumpur on MAS.

I walked around the duty free shops and went into a jewelry outlet. I saw Pandora on the counter and looked through some of the latest bracelet charm. I was torn between two, the Pavé Hangng Heart charm or my zodiac charm.

"Hi. Nice. You have such a good taste….expensive I might add. Anyway what are those?” It was Iddin snooping around checking out my shopping cart.

"Oh hi…..I thought you were with Hans. I was looking at these bracelet charms and can’t decide which one to buy." Aku menjawab. "Which one do you think? Price wise the heart is 200 hundred dollars more expensive than the zodiac charm." I continued to explain.

"Aaahhhh…that’s what they are….bracelet charm….", Iddin finally figure out. "But why is the heart more expensive?" He asked and membelek the charm between his fingers.

"Well…..the heart ada diamonds on it…..see…..", aku pun menunjukkan both charms so that he can see the difference. We were so close to each other and our shoulders brushed. "So, what do you think? Which one I should get?" and I couldn't belief myself that I asked for Iddin's opinion.

"Me? You're asking me?" Iddin sounded surprised. "I am not good with these sorts of thing……but I think you should go with the zodiac sign. One piece of diamond. Mysterious. Symbolic….yeah, this is the one….". He pointed to the charm and confirmed his decision.

"Ok then….I will buy the zodiac charm. Iddin, thanks for helping me to decide. I appreciate it." Aku akur pada pendapatnya.

"You tak nak belikan for your wife? Pandora is a quality brand and they are very popular.", I suggested.

He smiled. "I know what you are doing here….you nak ambik hati I ye? or perhaps an excuse something you can remember me by, right?". He was flirting with me.

"Is  that what you think? Kalau ya pun, what? You’re gonna run to Hans….and tell him what? Tika is flirting with me?" Rasakan now it’s my turn kenakan you, Iddin. Aku tersenyum meleret and walked off straight to the cashier. He smiled and shook his head yet he still followed me around like a little puppy.

We continued to walk around other outlet. Aku juga ikut berhenti dan memberi pendapat things he was interested when we stopped at Adidas, then Ralph Lauren.  But aku surrender when we stepped in the duty free perfume outlet. I saw he was already looking through his favorite cologne. And he picked up a bottle of Drakkar Noir and turn towards where I was standing. I just stood there and looked back at him. My hands folded back, I was  looking at him and swaying my body front and back…..and smiling….."What?"…I said and I saw him pulled the bottle up as though asking me whether he should buy it. "You still wear them?" I asked.

“All the time…”, he replied. I walked over closer to him and said, "I know. I can smell it from the other night. We are going to be late, Iddin, I think you should get a bottle."....and he paid for the cologne.

We met up with Hans who was sitting in front of his laptop at Cafe Nero. "Working already?"I asked and gave him a kiss on the cheek.